Hazy memories. Small town cheap hotel room. The suite though; with the hot tub. First time disappointment. Probably for him too. Intentions hidden. Not so much for her; she was merely playing along. Keeping the abusive relationship on its rails. Keeping him happy. Illegal. Numerous illegalities. Ages of danger. Maturity undercooked. Cigarettes in the coffee shop. Champagne in the tub. Sneaking up the back stairs. Dark room. Teletube illumination. Tee shirt no panties. Touching, pawing, gentle bouncing. Sleepless, scant participation, slight nausea. Humid. Knowledge of the wrongness existed. Perception wasn’t there. Perspective had not been built. Passion absent. Love misdirected. Money wasted. Expectations unmet. Parental explanations preposterously well received and accepted. Damage injected at a small size and no recognition. A mistake left to grow with time.