You left us yesterday. I was so happy for you because I knew how badly you wanted to go. I know that you have gone somewhere wonderful and left a part of yourself here to watch over all of us who loved you so. I couldn’t sort out my feeling to transform them into words yesterday. Today it seems a little more real though. I have cried and cried. I have consoled the kids and given them lots of hugs.
You helped make my childhood so wonderful. I remember Christmases when I was little and the piles and piles of boxes under your tree. You always let me eat as much ice cream as I wanted, and took me out to restaurants all of the time. You let me pick out whatever I wanted in the grocery store when I was staying with you…all kinds of things that mom would not let me pick out. You gave me experiences that most children do not get to have. Like riding on the four-wheeler or driving the golf cart at seven years old.
I love all of the ways that I am like you and can only hope to prove myself a woman as strong as you have been. I believe that I have your stubbornness and your constant curiosity. I share your love of habitual actions. I am endowed with your concern for waste and your frugalness. I have your love for poetry and for Shakespeare, and I am not afraid of snakes either.
I promise that the kids will always get to eat ice cream. I promise to tell them all of the memories I have of you, and the stories that you have told me. I will tell them about how you stabbed yourself with the ladder hook, playing hide and seek. I will tell them about how the firecrackers went off in your pockets and you had to yank your pants off in front of everyone. I will tell them about the time that we saved the three baby rabbits and you cared for them until they could be set free.
I promise to be there for mom like she has been for you. I will try to be as good a daughter as she has. I am afraid that I would not have been as strong as she ha,s in the past few months, as she has watched you suffer and fade away. I am so grateful that she could be there for you when I could not. I am so grateful that the hurting is over for you, and will now begin to fade for her. I love you. Thank you for sticking around as long as you did and making the memories that I can hold onto forever. I will miss you, yet I know that you are with me still. Au revoir Meme…until we meet again.